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Thanks for asking! I’m as well as I can be, given the circumstances. I’m probably going to contract a stress-induced illness; that’s how I roll.
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"Tell me is the world really worth saving?" -Everybody Dies by Rory Webley
Help Gabriel.@rae That’s a pretty sad story…..
but did you put it in the wrong forum? or is this a way or telling us you need prayer because you’ve started to become too concerned about your weight and food habits?
Gerald handled that. You don’t question Gerald. (if you know you know)
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This isn’t a prayer request, just a praise report. For those of you who knew, my sister and I went to Eastern Europe at the start of this year. It has been amazing! And now we are back home, safe and sound. Thanks for the prayers, empathy, and 3 am activity. For the Kingdom!
Hot Milk+Brown Sugar+Vanilla+Ginger+Cinnamon=All the comfort this world can offer.
Glad y’all made it back and also had a wonderful time!
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music
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That’s awesome!!
"Don't shine so that others can see you. Shine so that through you, others can see Him." ~ C.S.L.
It’s late/early depending how you look at it and I had the sudden urge to post this here.
I think I told you guys about my presyncope which is basically the fancy term for getting lightheaded and falling over without passing out.
Well, Friday I had a bad day where I felt occasionally dizzy, my head feeling like I had been hanging upside-down. It didn’t really freak me out much, this happens occasionally and I’ve basically accepted it most likely will happen for the rest of my life. I was slightly worried because I had a regatta for rowing the next day.
Saturday comes, I won third in a single, and later ended up with sadly last place (there was no chance of winning that one in the first place) in a four. I felt a little tired as I can never get more than 4-5 hours of sleep before a regatta. My eyes were blinking a few seconds longer than normal as I carried one of our boats which honestly could have been bad if something happened.
As we broke it down for the day as a crew, I was standing next to our coach as I fell over. I barely caught myself from hitting my head on the asphalt, which really could have ended badly, but I was fine.
I don’t think this will ever truly go away. It’s very likely linked to my lymes, and so unless something miraculous happens, I will have it for the rest of my life. I’m not really worried about it, and that’s not why I’m typing this post at 2:30 AM.
I’m just worried because I fell over in front of almost my entire crew.
I consider my crew as a second family I get for a few hours three days a week. Something about me is that I will often hide things from my family because I don’t want them to worry.
I’ve mentioned before that I have lymes to my crew, and that’s the reason I cox some days instead of rowing, but they had never actually seen it. These are people I weekly work with, and I try to look strong in front of them even when I don’t feel like it because I’m next in line to be crew captain next season most likely. As well as a summer coach. I also have a group of 5 of younger girls who look up to me. All 5 were there. I don’t want them to worry, I don’t want them to really see when I’m weak.
I also don’t want them to try and “baby” me by not letting me row as much. I don’t row as much already, I don’t want to be pulled further away.
I’m not sure if any of that will happen. I’ll see them Wednesday.
I don’t even know if this made sense. Idk, I’ll post it and see if I regret it.
"Tell me is the world really worth saving?" -Everybody Dies by Rory Webley
Help Gabriel.I’m so sorry that happened.
I have a few thoughts, but I want to shoot you an email because I’d rather say what I have to say off-line.
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music
Let your crew know. You shouldn’t be concerned about how strong or weak you look. That’s a minor issue. Falling over is a major issue. I’m not trying to wildly speculate, but isn’t there a possibility that you lose balance on a boat and pitch over? If you don’t tell anyone, there’s a risk of hitting your head or worse.
Many, many people have chronic illnesses that need to be “adjusted around,” so to speak. It’s a sometimes disheartening fact, but it’s also more commonly recognized these days, and you don’t have to hide it. If you’re worrying about your crew’s reactions, you can choose how to explain the situation! Tell them you don’t want this to disrupt the sport. Tell them you don’t want to be babied. Let them know if you might black out, and what to expect.
I understand you don’t want them to worry and you want to keep everything normal. But if this condition is permanent, that’s your normal. Treat it that way, and everyone around you will adjust.
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This is kinda long, and it’s not really a specific prayer request… it’s just something that goes around in my head that’s minor… 🙃 I hope it’s okay that I put it here.
Does anyone else get random urges to start fasting from writing? I always assumed it was just my OCD until early this year. I finally convinced myself, after nearly two years, to take a 31 day break from writing.
The past four years, I’ve heavily struggled with fasting from various things as a compulsion with OCD. And I came to a point that I felt angry when I had to fast, but I’m glad I did so the urge calmed a bit.
Now I always take at least 2 days off a week from writing, just to make sure I’m not going to get an urge to start fasting again. But I guess it doesn’t really work like that, because I have a new urge to fast from writing. I feel like God is telling me not only to take a break in January and the two days off a week, but maybe to also take June off?
I shouldn’t be mad, because I know it’s such a small, not very significant, thing. But I am mad because I struggle with other things mentally… and I sometimes feel like God is just throwing this on top of it all to be concerned about.
This way, then that way, and that way twice, and that way again, and then the same, but BACKWARDS!
Here is what I would do. I would really pray about this and really open your (spiritual) ears and eyes to what God tells you. Sometimes it’s good to fast, but sometimes we lay those things on ourselves in an almost pharisee-like attitude when really God doesn’t want that at all. It’s really a matter of the heart, not of what we are doing. Does that make sense?
I would pray and talk to people who are older and wiser and you trust (parents or pastor?) the worst thing you can do is fast and be angry at or with God about it, that does nothing but cause harm.
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music
I would pray and talk to people who are older and wiser and you trust (parents or pastor?)
I agree with this. Sometimes we young adults get really stuck in our heads and it helps to present the situation to someone else.
The past four years, I’ve heavily struggled with fasting from various things as a compulsion with OCD.
If this might be an OCD thing, try to pinpoint why you’re doing it. Is it a fear of something? Are you punishing yourself for something?
I’m not saying a break from writing is bad. Sometimes it’s a great way to reset. I’d even recommend it to most people. But if you’re not doing it because you need a break or it’s distracting you from something important, there might be an underlying extra reason to find. Becoming aware of your own beliefs is the first step towards recognizing what is true.
If you’re still unsure why it’s happening, that’s totally normal. Talk to your parents or another trusted person, and pray, like Ellette said. I’m sure it’ll be sorted out with time. :]
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That does make sense! I have talked with people I trust. Almost everytime, I have gotten a response indicating that they think it’s just me overthinking, and that I probably don’t have to take a break…Yet it didn’t really matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get the thought of taking a break to go away.
And I don’t want to be mad at God… I guess I just don’t understand why I think He’s telling me to do this, which is frustrating. I didn’t write in January, and I’m still resentful about it, even though it’s over. Because I still don’t understand why I did it, other than to possibly clear my head? I kind of just avoid thinking about it…
If this might be an OCD thing, try to pinpoint why you’re doing it. Is it a fear of something? Are you punishing yourself for something?
I’m not sure honestly… I have thought that maybe I get distracted really easily, and I should take a break to refocus on other things. I just didn’t think my writing time overtook other activities that much…. I could be wrong, but I feel like I can readjust my time if I notice my writing is making me neglect other important things…
I agree that taking a break isn’t bad… It just seems like other people take breaks because they want to, or they simply have nothing to write about. I feel like taking a break -every time I think I must- is like some kind of task I’ve been putting off for a while 😅 If that makes any sense…
Also I hope I’m not ranting or oversharing too much… Thank you both so much for replying. My brain is constantly going in all different directions between story ideas and other unrelated concerns. 😵💫 And I’m very grateful there’s other Christian writers out there to talk to.
This way, then that way, and that way twice, and that way again, and then the same, but BACKWARDS!
I’m glad the others had timely responses for you! I just wanted to say I have impulses to fast fiction specifically. Once, I fasted all writing for a month, although I did not do it in an entirely beneficial way. Writing non-fiction/journaling/poetry is incredibly powerful for one’s personal Spiritual life. The thing that makes me want to sometimes back off fiction is that I can forget that myth is best used as a lense to see reality with new eyes and instead lose touch with the world God made. For that reason, it can be good to take a step back to refocus. I will not try to say whether God is asking you to step away from writing or not, but I thought I’d let you know I’ve been somewhere similar.
And here’s some food for thought. You seem to have a strong foundation on which your understanding of fasting is built, but here’s a bit of mine in case it helps.
Fasting is something you do for your own personal Spiritual life and/or to bring down strongholds. There are two passages of Scripture on fasting that come to mind. First is Matthew 6, which teaches that it’s to realign your trust and desires into God’s will. Second is Isaiah 58:3-12 which describes the kind of fast that God want us to practice. Basically, it’s about taking away the things that can hinder relationship with God and others (Not about punishing ourselves or trying to convince God to do something). Verses 6-8 say specifically God chooses a fast that is “to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?… to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to thy house? when thou seest the naked, that thou cover him; and that thou hide not thyself from thine own flesh?” Fasting challenges us because it brings some of our own faults to light so they can be dealt with. Both passages continue to challenge my understanding of fasting and even prayer.
Hot Milk+Brown Sugar+Vanilla+Ginger+Cinnamon=All the comfort this world can offer.
Your explanation of fasting is great. And thanks for sharing your thoughts. I think I do sometimes get confused on the real meaning and intention behind fasting, since I tend to unintentionally look at it from the wrong perspective…
I have thought that maybe I am doing something wrong, and that perhaps writing is only hindering me from hearing God. Although, I don’t know reliable my idea is, since I usually always find something wrong to think about, whether or not I’m being an active writer. Even if I’m supposed to just take a break from writing, I have a suspicion that I’m going overboard with it for other reasons… because so far, no one else that I’ve talked with about this seems to think that my writing-break idea is really all from God… so I may just simply be taking a break this month to take a break.
Also, thanks again for replying and sharing your thoughts! I really do appreciate it a ton. Like I said in my previous post, I hope I’m not oversharing anything! I tend to either be socially awkward or the complete opposite, which I’d like to say can be awkwardly overboard lol.
This way, then that way, and that way twice, and that way again, and then the same, but BACKWARDS!
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