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How has everyone’s summers been?
… Well… I’d love to tell you about it! Get ready for a trauma dump heh…
I started writing my newest WIP this Spring. It was going okay. And I also joined a group chat with the kids at school… that was a mistake
I went to the beach with my family for two weeks… But I spent most of my time on that group chat. Even thought I was slowly growing sick of it and their stupid inappropriate jokes… But they were the first friends I ever made at school. And my mom was so proud at me for making friends coming from homeschooling. So I didn’t want to disappoint her. (If you’ve ever watched Hilda, it’s like the scene when she makes friends with those kids but then they start to throw rocks at birds…)
Well when we got home I was slowly becoming a recluse. I would just talk with these kids who had a toll on my mental health… And the reason I kept talking to them was many different reasons. First off I didn’t want disappoint my mom. and I didn’t want to tell her that they were bad kids. Plus I knew one of them from my church (he was actually good, I’m still friends with him :]…) And I didn’t want to seem lame to the kids either. I always felt pressured to join them in the games they were playing and such… And I was afraid if I removed them from my contacts I wouldn’t make any more friends.
Eventually I told one of them I thought I could trust a deep secret that I’m never going to share again… And then I slipped up and almost told him another thing that I also will never share. But he kept wanting to know what that secret was. So he blackmailed with the other secret to get to me confess. That was the first time I experienced shock… Nothing felt real. It all felt like a dream. And then I had the idea to end myself. But I talked to some real friends I have in Arizona and they helped me out. (I haven’t had those thoughts since)
To continue… I blocked that one kid and stopped talking to him. But I kept talking to the other kids. And that was a mistake. Eventually one day me and my brothers were going to go for a walk with our dog. I was excited to do this because to heal my mental health I was spending time with my siblings each day. First I spent the day with my older sister, TheShadow. Then I spent the next day with my younger sister. This was the third day, Wednesday, and I was gonna go on a long walk with my older and younger brother. We were inside by the way, getting ready to go. Keep that in mind.
I see our neighbor’s dog get off his leash (our neighbor is one of the nicest guy on planet earth) So I let my dog out to help him. Like I’m still holding onto his leash but sometimes when our dog gets out sometimes our neighbors will help by letting our dog run up to theirs and just sniff and stuff. And that’s what I thought would happen. But our neighbors dog started biting and attacking our dog for no reason. Our dog is a golden doodle. His dog is a pit bull… I didn’t know that or what they looked like. This was the second time I experienced shock in my life. We eventually got the two dogs apart and took our dog to the vet. Our neighbor payed for it all…
I ran upstairs (once I knew our dog was safe) and was shaking the whole time. I remember crying. My older brother and younger brother were yelling at me the whole time that it was all my fault. And they were right. Well it was just me and y sisters left at home. I went to tell my “friends” from school at what happened (I messaged them on the group chat). I was freaking out, there was blood everywhere… Well that’s when reality fully hit me in the face. They started making jokes around my dog… They were mocking it all. Well the put the final nail in the coffin. I lashed out at them. I went at it how angry and upset and confused I was. And I did unfortunately swear… They all were a little surprised by this because I’m usually the clean one… Well the ones who weren’t mocking it started justifying the ones who did. I blocked all of them
I never talked to them again. I was so angry. Some of them tried reaching out in different ways. And I kept blocking them. My friend from church says that they miss me… because apparently they actually liked me. But I’m not returning.
Well that’s not all that happened this summer. My siblings and I fought a lot after the dog incident. My older brother kept bringing it up that it was all my fault. And he never forgave me. Which sucks cause I really looked up to him… But I forgive him for being harsh towards me.
Back tracking a little bit… I got into a bike accident at the beach and flew over my handle bars. I skinned my arms and chin. I have a scar from it now. It was bleeding a lot. lol… it hurt… That ruined the rest of the vacation too. Because I could no longer go into the water above the waist. (it happened on the last few days- so it didn’t heal fast enough)
And then the last few days of summer came. I still had a week left while everyone else started up (I started September 2) And then my brother left for college… He’s at college now and I miss him. I’m looking back and I’m realizing that I wasted my time… and nows he’s off. I didn’t spend enough time with him. I spent time with those fake friends… Or cooped up in my room. I shouldn’t have fought with him. And now I don’t know when I’ll get to see him. It feels so different without him. The world feels just a bit emptier.
The only good things that I got from this are few… lol… I learned not to trust people so easily or not to hang around people who have a toll on my mental health. I wrote more of my book. It’s going really well! I even got to develop the characters! I also made amazing friends with those two kids from Arizona I talked about earlier! They’re really supportive! And one of them is even Christian! Shout out to Kit and Len ? (Those aren’t their names lol… we use fake names. I’m Puck! lol)
Plus on the last day of summer, right before everyone started school and my brother left… Me and my older sister cooked a “Good bye summer” Breakfast for our whole family. It was so fun! And that made up for almost everything. When I look back at my summer… I say I had a good summer. Because I learned lessons. And that’s what I can take away.
- Set goals! Try to challenge yourself. If you want your crop to bloom you have to plant it in the Spring! Work hard with it through Summer! Harvest it through Autumn! And then have enough to last through Winter!
- Spend time with people you love and care about! You don’t know how long you’ll have with them! Spend as much time as you can. And do things in person. Being chronically online is not a good thing. Even if it’s with your friends or family. It’s not the same. Spend time face to face
- Think before you act. Take a step back and look at your situation. Is your idea really a good one? What could the benefits be? What about the harm it could do? The draw backs? Make sure you take a second- no! a minute to look around and think. And look for signs! They’re like hints on what you should do. (not literal signs… but sometimes maybe XD)
- Be careful who you trust. Not everyone’s as good as you imagine them. If they’re having you do bad things or things you’re uncomfortable with… ditch them lol. Or if they’re pressuring you to share something you’re uncomfortable with sharing.
- And finally… live life! Don’t stay put in one place. Be active!
Those are all the things I learned! I’m so happy that God gave me obstacles to help me be a better person! And to understand certain things! Quote of the summer:
“Don’t pray for things to be easier, rather, pray for more obstacles and more challenges for it is out of these that man’s character and will to succeed are formed.” – Seasons of life, by Jim Rohn.
If you read all this… thanks! You care! Even if you’re a stranger online… thank you… God bless!!! I’m gonna go down to dinner now XD
How has everyone’s summers been?
If you’ve been stalking the prayer requests topic, you’ll know it kind of sucked.? My grandma got in a bad car accident beginning of July. She passed away last week. I miss her.
We did go to Six Flags Great America though, which was amazing. And I reread Stormlight Archive, and read the newest one.
?For our Blessed Lady's sake, bring us in good ale!?
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Dear goodness. Those people sound like jerks. I’m glad you got them out of your life.
?For our Blessed Lady's sake, bring us in good ale!?
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Yes! I love that one!!!
This will forever been the best one that he has had though! We all cried because it was so beautiful! Even dad teared up. You can see her mom and dad and big brother in the crowd….
And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music
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If you’ve been stalking the prayer requests topic, you’ll know it kind of sucked.? My grandma got in a bad car accident beginning of July. She passed away last week. I miss her
Oh my goodness I’m so sorry! I hope everything’s okay! I’ll keep your grandma in my prayers! And your family too! That’s horrible. I know what it feels like to lost a grandparent…
@ellette
Ahhh!! I love the Voila song!!!
I used to have it saved to my playlist… it’s so beautiful…!!
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wa wawawa waaaa
@theducktator @the_lost-journal
🙁 I’m sorry you two had to deal with all that. I’ll pray for you and your families. Hope things get better for you!
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Thanks! I felt so many different emotions while writing that DX
But I’m happy to get it out of my system! I haven’t really told anyone… ??
until now ofc…
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Hey… hi, hello, howdy…
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Um. So. I don’t know how many of you kpers play Minecraft, but my sister wants to buy a realm on Minecraft. She wanted to know if any of you guys want to join it…
It’s only her and my brother (possibly me too but I don’t know), so it’s not like theres a bunch of random dangerous people that no one knows or anything.
If not, that’s okay too. She just thought to ask ya’ll.
(she actually has a kp account… @ hanako… coulda asked ?)…
wa wawawa waaaa
@grcr KP keeps giving me error messages every time I try to post something, but I would love that! Only thing is, if there’s like a join code or something you have to send, it’d probably be best to do it somewhere more private than here.
"When in doubt, eat cheese crackers."-me to my charries who don't even know about cheese crackers
Yay!
Only thing is, if there’s like a join code or something you have to send, it’d probably be best to do it somewhere more private than here.
Yeah, definitely. ? I can post the code on my profile and delete it after you get it… does that sound alright?
wa wawawa waaaa
I’ll post it whenever you’re ready… if that works.
wa wawawa waaaa
@grcr yeah that works. I’ll tell you when I can do it!
"When in doubt, eat cheese crackers."-me to my charries who don't even know about cheese crackers
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