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Yeah, that’s kind of when I relapsed into it too (about two years ago or so.) Yeah, definitely, knowing what it is gives it less power. I’m a lot better than I was a few years ago when it was worst, but I still have bad days every now and then. Nice to know that other people understand what it’s like too though. I kind of shy away from talking about my specific obsessions now because I know it’s OCD and therefore not as big of a deal as it feels to me, plus I worry that other people will misunderstand, if that makes sense. But there’s a surprising amount of people who go through it.
I’m glad you’re doing better now! Yeah the misunderstanding part is so real. I have typical obsessions and worries sometimes like wanting to check if windows are locked ect (though not nearly as intense as some people’s ocd with that kind of thing, mine with that is more anxiety) but compulsive/intrusive thoughts are really hard to explain. For me, they show the opposite of my personality. Like the things I hate most are what pop into my head, literally because I hate it. I watch a lot of mental health content online and I sometimes remember that irl there isn’t as much awareness and mental health still has a stigma, its too bad.
XD Augh, I’m sorry, that sounds terrible 😂 I would not be able to function on a call at 4 probably. Maybe someday we can try to plan an evening one.
it’s ok, don’t worry about it too much. If it happens to work out once or twice in the future that’s good enough, I don’t need or have the time to go to every meeting so it’s not that big of a deal. I did enjoy seeing you guys last time though! : )
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I’m sorry, that sounds really hard. You were able to find a doctor that seemed like she knew what she was doing, right? Have they been able to figure out different ways to help you?
Thanks. Unfortunately she didn’t feel qualified to take my case and sent me to the clinic where she learned and they messed up pretty bad. I improved a lot due to the diet changes they made for me (Apparently I’m allergic to a ton of stuff) but declined a good bit from a therapy they use on all their patients. I’ve been through a lot of doctor’s since and although I want to day I’m hopeful for this next one… I think it’s better to say that I learn one thing from every doctor I go to and then move onto the next if they aren’t able to help me more. I cringe every time I think about the cost, insurance doesn’t cover specialized providers.
Yeah, it can be hard, but most of the time it’s not too bad. Same. Mine’s more guilt/compulsive thoughts. Mainly just enhanced anxiety, but it can be obsessive. What about you?
About the same. It started when I was around 13, and I had compulsive thoughts of basically anything I didn’t want to happen happening to people I loved. I also had a compulsion to confess random things to my parents… the guilt was so bad I felt like I couldn’t breath sometimes. It improved a bit with some of my health but it started to actually go away when I realized it was a mental illness and not my fault in any way, that realization somehow took the power away from it. I still have compulsive thoughts, but I shrug them off and ignore any guilt that comes with it, and remind myself it isn’t real. I still remember what it was like to be in the heat of it though, it’s a really unique struggle. I’m sorry you’re going through that right now!
Oooohhh, yeah, PST would be early. Sorry about that. I didn’t know we had any Pacific time-zones on here (I mean, I figured there were probably some, but most people seem to be in EST or Central.) Yeah, it would be. Maybe someday we could try to do an evening/afternoon call—though 3 for you is 7 over here, I think, so it would be hard.
XD I guess there is a few of us perhaps. Who knows maybe I’ll surprise you guys and hop on at 4 am XD I actually naturally wake up at 4 and then fall back asleep but I’d hate for yall to see my groggy face like that, and idk if I could get back to sleep afterwards. If my health improves I might be willing to risk some sleep on it XD
I’m sorry it’s been so hard. I’ll keep praying for you. Know you’ve got a whole bunch of support on here if you ever want to reach out and ask for prayer or talk to someone. 💕💕
Thank you so much and I’ll pray for you too! < 3
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Thank you girl! Yeah, basically. It’s a lot more than that though. Pretty much about a year ago, I realized I was never going to get better if I kept letting my parents take care of my health (my mom has been helping me with my health via vitamins and stuff she found online for about 5 years after multiple Doctors said I had no cure). Growing up, I had no choice about what pills I was taking and it was really a bit traumatizing because it turned out poorly sometimes and she could be harsh about it. So this past year I basically decided that my health was going to be more important than my relationship with my mom (basically my only support system) for once, and after many arguments I was able to get through to her and I’m currently going to the providers I want to see. My mom’s change of perspective is really helping my sister and it’s seeming certain she’s going to get a major diagnosis soon (from what her providers have said). So basically I did the dirty work and I haven’t gotten much benefit from it. It’s incredibly painful, because my sister still has her relationship with our mom, but might get better as a result of me breaking away. I’m happy things are going well for her but it just seems like my suffering never ends.
Sorry to hear about the ocd, that sounds really rough. I’m actually getting evaluated for ocd and other stuff in like a month, I’m excited/nervous. I’m doing better than I was years ago but it still gets me on the bad days. Is yours like a guilt/compulsive thoughts kind of things or more physical?
I’m pst, and I’m sick until about 3 everyday… umm yeah. So I don’t expect to come often but if it happens to work out once or twice that would be cool : ) I only have about 3-4 hours each day where I’m able to do things not health related, so making plans is hard.
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Hey! Yeah, it has been a long time. I don’t come on here much unless summoned. Honestly I’m probably at the hardest point in my life rn so I’m doing pretty bad most days, but it feels like I’ve grown more in this year than my entire life somehow 😂
How are you?
Oh and also I don’t need to be tagged in the meets unless they are afternoon, I can’t come to morning times.
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@everyone what’s happening
they’ve been organizing video calls for the kp girls, I went a couple weeks ago.
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Aw thanks girl, yeah idk what I want to pursue but it would be nice to sell art someday.
I’ve really enjoyed the Lide! It’s the perfect size for me. The only problem I have is that the software is really annoying, but that’s pretty common when using a lower end product. It often will try to auto crop the image even though the program isn’t smart enough to know where to crop 🤦♀️If it won’t cooperate though, you can open the advanced scanning settings and select the area to be scanned.
Yeah it’s worked pretty good for me! Oh, and like other people mentioned, you can use free programs. Krita has multiply layers too so I’m pretty sure you can do the same thing. I like photoshop the best but I use krita and medibang too!
Oh and insta would probably work great for somebody like you, you just need to find the right people. There are a lot of Christian authors on insta who might want a cover artist or illustrator. I don’t like it much for myself because my art style is more anime, and unfortunately I guess it puts me outside the Christian circle sometimes.
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ooh this is really cool! I have a lot more experience making art than selling it lol… I’ve done fun commissions for free and stuff, but nothing for sale. I use a Canon lide 300 which is like 70 bucks and it’s been great! It’s a lot better quality than the usual one on a printer, probably partially because it can scan for photos instead of using document settings that might be standard depending on the printer. I use photoshop to crop out the edges and clean up the whites (if you are doing a black and white drawing you can use the ‘levels’ adjuster to bring the blacks up) I than duplicate the layer and set it to multiply to increase the colors (scanners don’t always catch the full vision). If that makes it too bright, you can adjust the multiply layer to a lower opacity.
Hope that helps!
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Miiinnnn, hey girl!! Has life been chill with you?
Hey!!
Most definitely not chill lol. Everything appears to have gone downhill from a outsiders perspective but I feel like it’s the crash before the climb if you know what I mean? Like idk, I feel like I’m finding myself in the midst of all this and that’s something I’ve been missing my whole life. I’m just discovering things I guess. Trying to keep up hope that things will work out : )
How about you?
I shall remember this in case of emergency boring scene, then. XD Sometimes you just gotta skip the boring stuff. (Although ofc there’s a difference between something being boring and something important being hard to write, so I have to think about that too.)
Yeah probably. Maybe you just need to give yourself some time. I get stressed out writing difficult scenes if I try to get through it too fast, or treat it like just a block in the road instead of a opportunity for creativity.
Girl you are a perfectly good writer, and taking a break from it only steeps your ideas in the wisdom of life-experienced Min.
Aw ty girl, that makes me feel a little better.
Also completely unrelated but I’m watching a show right now you might really like! It’s called Link Click, it’s a Chinese animated phycological/paranormal thriller. I don’t usually watch that kind of stuff but there’s no like ghosts/spirits stuff in it, just people with crazy abilities. Season 1 is one of the best written shows I’ve ever seen but I think I need to take a break before season 2 because the cliffhanger was rather disturbing and I need to recover my nervous system 😭😭😂
So far it’s been decently clean but of course I’d do your own research if you plan on watching it : )
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Hi, I don’t believe I’ve talked to you in what feels like ages 😂
I wish I could be of advice but uh I haven’t touched my draft in months?? Ikr???
I did at some point stop writing scenes I wasn’t interested in and that kinda helped. Like idk, I watch some anime that just skips the boring stuff. A great example of this is I was reading (manga this time) Blue Lock, and then main character fell asleep during a important soccer match, meaning it had to be explained to him. I realized afterwards this was just the author being really smart. The match wasn’t super important, and by the main character having it explained to him we get it summarized as readers. I want to learn how to do stuff like that in my writing because it made the book flow really well. Ig there are some scenes you just have to write though, so idk. I guess I’m not the person to be telling you how to write when I haven’t written in so long lol.
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Ooh ty for the tag! I looove world building, and I guess I take a lot of inspiration from different places, then try to connect the general ideas with reasons for them being if that makes sense. Like I might have the idea of a world with 5 different nations, I might want to have a magic system everyone can use, and have all of the nations be separated by geography. Just by asking ‘how and why’ for each of the questions, you can world build a lot. How and why does everyone use the magic system, how and why are there five nations, and how and why did they become separated by geography. And then when you have the answers to those questions, you ask how does this affect the different levels of society. Like how does it affect the poor and how does it affect the wealthy. That’s just how I go about it though, by asking myself why it means there is always a reason for the way things are (I kinda hate books that have things that are just there for the plot, instead of there for logic too). Anyways, that’s just how I go about it.
Also I think Pinterest has inspired some of the locations in my book, I love looking at other people’s art and imagining what it would be like to live there.
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yeah sounds like fun! I’m not feeling great, so I can’t guarantee if I will be able to, but I like drawing fun new things so go ahead and hit me with the description and I’ll see if I have the energy to do it. : D
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I haven’t seen it but I know that Gwen dies! I think somebody important is definitely going to die, I think either Gwen or the version of Miles from the other universe.
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thrift stores all the way! I got a super cute electric lantern for like 3 bucks, it looks kinda steampunky. Also, you can find artwork prints in the style you like and print them out at the library (or at home if you have a color printer). I really like getting little frames at the dollar store, every now and then they have nice ones. If your parents let you stick stuff to the wall you can make like a art collage, it’s one of my favorite things to do. I use masking tape to put up artwork, but I stick the tape against a pair of jeans or something fuzzy first to reduce the sticky, just to make sure it leaves the paint nice when I take it off.
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Ooh this looks like fun! Ellette has my email, but uhh I’m not free very often because of my health and I already have plans for the part of Saturday Ill be feeling ok for. What time generally have you guys been doing these at, and are you going to have another one?
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