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Hey! Yeah, it has been a long time. I don’t come on here much unless summoned. Honestly I’m probably at the hardest point in my life rn so I’m doing pretty bad most days, but it feels like I’ve grown more in this year than my entire life somehow 😂
How are you?
Oh and also I don’t need to be tagged in the meets unless they are afternoon, I can’t come to morning times.
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Aw, I’m sorry!! I’ve been praying for you. Is it the health stuff, or just everything?
I’m doing pretty good. I still struggle with my OCD a bit, but for the most part it’s better. I do still have bad days though.
Okay. What time zone are you in? I believe the next one will be at 11 EST, but I guess that still counts as morning. I think we could consider moving it back an hour if enough people wanted to though.
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Thank you girl! Yeah, basically. It’s a lot more than that though. Pretty much about a year ago, I realized I was never going to get better if I kept letting my parents take care of my health (my mom has been helping me with my health via vitamins and stuff she found online for about 5 years after multiple Doctors said I had no cure). Growing up, I had no choice about what pills I was taking and it was really a bit traumatizing because it turned out poorly sometimes and she could be harsh about it. So this past year I basically decided that my health was going to be more important than my relationship with my mom (basically my only support system) for once, and after many arguments I was able to get through to her and I’m currently going to the providers I want to see. My mom’s change of perspective is really helping my sister and it’s seeming certain she’s going to get a major diagnosis soon (from what her providers have said). So basically I did the dirty work and I haven’t gotten much benefit from it. It’s incredibly painful, because my sister still has her relationship with our mom, but might get better as a result of me breaking away. I’m happy things are going well for her but it just seems like my suffering never ends.
Sorry to hear about the ocd, that sounds really rough. I’m actually getting evaluated for ocd and other stuff in like a month, I’m excited/nervous. I’m doing better than I was years ago but it still gets me on the bad days. Is yours like a guilt/compulsive thoughts kind of things or more physical?
I’m pst, and I’m sick until about 3 everyday… umm yeah. So I don’t expect to come often but if it happens to work out once or twice that would be cool : ) I only have about 3-4 hours each day where I’m able to do things not health related, so making plans is hard.
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I’m sorry, that sounds really hard. You were able to find a doctor that seemed like she knew what she was doing, right? Have they been able to figure out different ways to help you?
Yeah, it can be hard, but most of the time it’s not too bad. Same. Mine’s more guilt/compulsive thoughts. Mainly just enhanced anxiety, but it can be obsessive. What about you?
Oooohhh, yeah, PST would be early. Sorry about that. I didn’t know we had any Pacific time-zones on here (I mean, I figured there were probably some, but most people seem to be in EST or Central.) Yeah, it would be. Maybe someday we could try to do an evening/afternoon call—though 3 for you is 7 over here, I think, so it would be hard.
I’m sorry it’s been so hard. I’ll keep praying for you. Know you’ve got a whole bunch of support on here if you ever want to reach out and ask for prayer or talk to someone. 💕💕
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It looks like we’ll be at a church training thing this Saturday, so I probably won’t be able to join. That said, you’re welcome to send an email link, and if I happen to be free I’ll bounce on.
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Fork the GorkI’m sorry, that sounds really hard. You were able to find a doctor that seemed like she knew what she was doing, right? Have they been able to figure out different ways to help you?
Thanks. Unfortunately she didn’t feel qualified to take my case and sent me to the clinic where she learned and they messed up pretty bad. I improved a lot due to the diet changes they made for me (Apparently I’m allergic to a ton of stuff) but declined a good bit from a therapy they use on all their patients. I’ve been through a lot of doctor’s since and although I want to day I’m hopeful for this next one… I think it’s better to say that I learn one thing from every doctor I go to and then move onto the next if they aren’t able to help me more. I cringe every time I think about the cost, insurance doesn’t cover specialized providers.
Yeah, it can be hard, but most of the time it’s not too bad. Same. Mine’s more guilt/compulsive thoughts. Mainly just enhanced anxiety, but it can be obsessive. What about you?
About the same. It started when I was around 13, and I had compulsive thoughts of basically anything I didn’t want to happen happening to people I loved. I also had a compulsion to confess random things to my parents… the guilt was so bad I felt like I couldn’t breath sometimes. It improved a bit with some of my health but it started to actually go away when I realized it was a mental illness and not my fault in any way, that realization somehow took the power away from it. I still have compulsive thoughts, but I shrug them off and ignore any guilt that comes with it, and remind myself it isn’t real. I still remember what it was like to be in the heat of it though, it’s a really unique struggle. I’m sorry you’re going through that right now!
Oooohhh, yeah, PST would be early. Sorry about that. I didn’t know we had any Pacific time-zones on here (I mean, I figured there were probably some, but most people seem to be in EST or Central.) Yeah, it would be. Maybe someday we could try to do an evening/afternoon call—though 3 for you is 7 over here, I think, so it would be hard.
XD I guess there is a few of us perhaps. Who knows maybe I’ll surprise you guys and hop on at 4 am XD I actually naturally wake up at 4 and then fall back asleep but I’d hate for yall to see my groggy face like that, and idk if I could get back to sleep afterwards. If my health improves I might be willing to risk some sleep on it XD
I’m sorry it’s been so hard. I’ll keep praying for you. Know you’ve got a whole bunch of support on here if you ever want to reach out and ask for prayer or talk to someone. 💕💕
Thank you so much and I’ll pray for you too! < 3
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sounds good!
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I learned yesterday that we’re going to have a friend stay at our house all day next Saturday so I don’t think I’ll be able to join.
If I had ever learnt, I should have been a great proficient.
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I woke up sick so I might not make it
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The official KP call is next Saturday, not today!
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Ooohhh, that’s convenient. XD Thank you!
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Sorry! That went into my Promotions, unfortunately.
Unfortunately she didn’t feel qualified to take my case and sent me to the clinic where she learned and they messed up pretty bad. I improved a lot due to the diet changes they made for me (Apparently I’m allergic to a ton of stuff) but declined a good bit from a therapy they use on all their patients. I’ve been through a lot of doctor’s since and although I want to day I’m hopeful for this next one… I think it’s better to say that I learn one thing from every doctor I go to and then move onto the next if they aren’t able to help me more. I cringe every time I think about the cost, insurance doesn’t cover specialized providers.
Oh 😥 I’m sorry. Hopefully what you learn and what helps you will just continue to build.
About the same. It started when I was around 13, and I had compulsive thoughts of basically anything I didn’t want to happen happening to people I loved. I also had a compulsion to confess random things to my parents… the guilt was so bad I felt like I couldn’t breath sometimes. It improved a bit with some of my health but it started to actually go away when I realized it was a mental illness and not my fault in any way, that realization somehow took the power away from it. I still have compulsive thoughts, but I shrug them off and ignore any guilt that comes with it, and remind myself it isn’t real. I still remember what it was like to be in the heat of it though, it’s a really unique struggle. I’m sorry you’re going through that right now!
Yeah, that’s kind of when I relapsed into it too (about two years ago or so.) Yeah, definitely, knowing what it is gives it less power. I’m a lot better than I was a few years ago when it was worst, but I still have bad days every now and then. Nice to know that other people understand what it’s like too though. I kind of shy away from talking about my specific obsessions now because I know it’s OCD and therefore not as big of a deal as it feels to me, plus I worry that other people will misunderstand, if that makes sense. But there’s a surprising amount of people who go through it.
XD I guess there is a few of us perhaps. Who knows maybe I’ll surprise you guys and hop on at 4 am XD I actually naturally wake up at 4 and then fall back asleep but I’d hate for yall to see my groggy face like that, and idk if I could get back to sleep afterwards. If my health improves I might be willing to risk some sleep on it XD
XD Augh, I’m sorry, that sounds terrible 😂 I would not be able to function on a call at 4 probably. Maybe someday we can try to plan an evening one.
Thank you so much and I’ll pray for you too! < 3
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Aw, sorry to miss you! Hopefully you’ll be able to make the next one! (Let us know if anything changes! 😉)
XD No problem! Hope you feel better soon!
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So I haven’t done this yet and I don’t really know how it’s gonna work…does someone send out the invite for the meet to all of our emails? Or is it a link on KP? I dunno XD
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